Well, the house was appraised today (a step in a looooong succession of bank steps we’ve been through, it seems), thus clearing one more hurdle. After this it should be smooth sailing. No, really. In a matter of weeks this blog will actually chronicle renovations rather than my rather uninteresting and pathetic life.
Speaking of pathetic … why do I always do dumb things in front of large audiences? Last night during the middle school open house, we teachers were passing a microphone, introducing ourselves. I meant to start out with something friendly, like “hi,” but what came out was a loud “Uuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhh” which I tried to turn into a “hi” but ended up sounding like a sick cow. Oh well. Just stick this instance in the “I embarrass myself” folder, which is fairly bulging with examples.
Today was, in one word, exhausting. Being my neurotic self, I ended up waking up at 4:15 a.m. with one thought in my head: what are we doing for homeroom? The logical answer should have been, “Who the hell cares?” because in the larger scheme of things, homeroom ranks pretty low. But it bothered me that we just had a meeting about this the day before, and I couldn’t remember what we had decided on. I tried to get to sleep, but I tried in vain. The clock ticked on until my alarm woke me up at 5:30, and I heard every tick. (Theoretically, that is, since my clock is digital.)
I wasn’t prepared for the utter chaos and agony that is middle school. I remember it pretty well, but I wasn’t prepared to view it after all this time. Almost every kid exudes a confusing mix of self-consciousness and cockiness; their facial expressions constantly fluctuate from one to the other, making for an interesting observation. The sixth graders were an eclectic mix of puny boys versus girls who looked ready for high school. Ugh, I remember that agony — the vast difference in development that was so painfully obvious to everyone.
The day’s been a blur, and I’m too tired to think about tomorrow, although I know I have to. There are plans to make, seating charts to create, and magic to work. Two of the three are possible.